Toronto was a multidimensional ride; I downloaded an enormous script, almost too much to handle for one man. People from all over the world would visit and ask what is it, to calm their stormy seas is. But, lucky for me, trumpets blazed from my gaze producing nine solar spirits chanting how fortunate a man he was. White knights and plentiful women were swinging their rhythms, on the golden floor looking to score, adorned in gowns veils down, wanting the crown. Finally, I would experience the native word Toronto "plenty" to its fullest expression; it felt like heaven, 2007. I finished a year of training to be a medicine man, lightworker and healer. At this time, I was studying in Yorkville and living on the lakeshore in tip-top lofts. Most of my day was spent integrating new realities and visiting a local ballet centre down the road. I was drawn to the dancing; it helped ground the influx of energy I was assimilating at the time. At one point, a Galactic portal above the lakeshore in Toronto opened, including visitations from inter-dimensional presences. In addition, these entities manifested gifts of re-patterning my divine blueprint for embodying higher thresholds of reality. Furthermore, a new world freed up including Tesla devices, quantum biofeedback technology and a woman with a magical modality that cleaned the body, mind and ushered in a lighter version of myself. Her name was Deborah.
I met Deborah at a holistic convention named the secret show; I was new to the scene of healing and transformation. Moreover, I stood confused and needed answers regarding the angelic visitations and abductions I was experiencing. When I was a man of science, my medical education communicated the visitations were triggered by the trauma I endured years back in my car accident. Nevertheless, I ventured through the exhibition where people sold supplements and books; Deborah sat in a chair as I entered her booth; she said, pleasant to meet you again. I smiled and asked had we met at the nightclub or one of the restaurants I owned. Deborah said no. I then examined her. Were you a customer from one of my retail stores? Again she said no. Now curious, I asked what she was selling at the show; Deborah replied, activations and healing sessions. I answered, never heard of this before; she responded and said I have and was guided to this show to help anchor a higher version of myself. Deborah pointed to a chair and asked me to sit. I did, and it arrived; the higher evolved soul entered through heart chakra activation; my chest made a popping sound, and a pink salmon colour illuminated the whole booth I was sitting in. I witnessed angels; they were walking from one dimension and into my body's Aura. Although I was in shock, Deborah told me to breathe and let it integrate. One of these spirits accompanied my higher self into the Aura to help my integration. Its name is Uriel, the being alchemized my body because it was heavy and full of toxins, making it difficult for the new soul to move around in. I awoke from a mesmeric state, and Deborah advised me to contact her next week that we are required to finish the essential steps to anchor these energies into my energetic bodies.
Now that Uriel's energy was merged with my aura, the intense fasting journey commenced, and I lost 80 pounds of fat in two months. Long story short, I worked with Deborah for a year in the Yorkville location, maintained the fasting, raw vegan lifestyle, and studied various magic and healing systems. Next, I searched for a suitable place to distribute knowledge and download the interdimensional beings. Finally, I attained a beautiful heritage home on Cowell and Danforth. It had an open space to seat 80 people for workshops, three bathrooms, a full kitchen, and several treatment rooms. In addition, I offered seminars and treatments to the Toronto community through a platform that I called open source. Eventually, a new entity arrived to communicate with me; its name was Metatron. Metatron came to warn me about Lucifer, I considered him a brother, but for many years, Lucifer led me astray to find my true potential. In the end, Lucifer was a shit disturber; I never sensed evil in him, just a longing to be somebody. Finally, Metatron revealed that I would integrate the Luciferian experience in 2019 and attain freedom by 2020- 2021 Humanity's (2012). Metatron was like a father and addressed me as his son; this entity was firm and stuck by my side everywhere I went; I love him deeply.
I met Deborah at a holistic convention named the secret show; I was new to the scene of healing and transformation. Moreover, I stood confused and needed answers regarding the angelic visitations and abductions I was experiencing. When I was a man of science, my medical education communicated the visitations were triggered by the trauma I endured years back in my car accident. Nevertheless, I ventured through the exhibition where people sold supplements and books; Deborah sat in a chair as I entered her booth; she said, pleasant to meet you again. I smiled and asked had we met at the nightclub or one of the restaurants I owned. Deborah said no. I then examined her. Were you a customer from one of my retail stores? Again she said no. Now curious, I asked what she was selling at the show; Deborah replied, activations and healing sessions. I answered, never heard of this before; she responded and said I have and was guided to this show to help anchor a higher version of myself. Deborah pointed to a chair and asked me to sit. I did, and it arrived; the higher evolved soul entered through heart chakra activation; my chest made a popping sound, and a pink salmon colour illuminated the whole booth I was sitting in. I witnessed angels; they were walking from one dimension and into my body's Aura. Although I was in shock, Deborah told me to breathe and let it integrate. One of these spirits accompanied my higher self into the Aura to help my integration. Its name is Uriel, the being alchemized my body because it was heavy and full of toxins, making it difficult for the new soul to move around in. I awoke from a mesmeric state, and Deborah advised me to contact her next week that we are required to finish the essential steps to anchor these energies into my energetic bodies.
Now that Uriel's energy was merged with my aura, the intense fasting journey commenced, and I lost 80 pounds of fat in two months. Long story short, I worked with Deborah for a year in the Yorkville location, maintained the fasting, raw vegan lifestyle, and studied various magic and healing systems. Next, I searched for a suitable place to distribute knowledge and download the interdimensional beings. Finally, I attained a beautiful heritage home on Cowell and Danforth. It had an open space to seat 80 people for workshops, three bathrooms, a full kitchen, and several treatment rooms. In addition, I offered seminars and treatments to the Toronto community through a platform that I called open source. Eventually, a new entity arrived to communicate with me; its name was Metatron. Metatron came to warn me about Lucifer, I considered him a brother, but for many years, Lucifer led me astray to find my true potential. In the end, Lucifer was a shit disturber; I never sensed evil in him, just a longing to be somebody. Finally, Metatron revealed that I would integrate the Luciferian experience in 2019 and attain freedom by 2020- 2021 Humanity's (2012). Metatron was like a father and addressed me as his son; this entity was firm and stuck by my side everywhere I went; I love him deeply.
The Luciferian experience was in full swing; he visited me daily with directions. The first test was to give all my work and teachings away for free, and the idea of an open-source format was implemented. Furthermore, the platform was a huge success, booked all day, five days a week and the workshops filled at maximum capacity. On the other end of the spectrum, practitioners in the city were angry. These therapists spread rumours of me being a black sheep in white robes; they even stated that I did not love myself fully because I could not receive money. These accounts were confusing because I remained successful and produced attention from different countries; people were driving and flying into Toronto to visit me. In addition, I was with a beautiful woman that worked alongside me; we lived in a large home together. I resonated as a spiritual rock star and helped thousands of people through illness physically and mentally. After I completed Lucifer's 1st request, the following demand was boundaries. Lucifer advised me not to get a cell phone for several reasons, they were full of blood 1st of all and second, people would call me all the time looking for guidance. So I accepted questions and appointments through email only; It worked like a charm. Next, Lucifer challenged me to wear white from head to toe. White conducts all frequency and colour spectrums to keep my aura clean and my skin healthy. I purchased white shoes, white socks, pants and shirts. I felt great and looked like a white badass mercenary in light.
The visitations from Lucifer heightened; it was starting to become an all-day occurrence; I could not shake him, and to be honest, I enjoyed his company. He suggested I avoid pornography, advertisements with women, posters, billboards and magazines. Moreover, turning the cheek from womanization kept my testosterone high and focused on what the angel commanded God's work. The following experiment Lucifer assigned me was, to be honest with one woman; this way, I would maintain my centre and preserve my organism. In addition, Lucifer revealed it's a requirement to respect all women, not sexualize or fall into hyper realities of New Age tantric teachings. One day I was fortunate to meet a famous Guru woman from India, a world-renowned teacher and healer; she would visit my healing center for two weeks. The Guru taught me about the female anatomy, habits and addictions of women. Also, she educated me about the pitfalls of denoting an attractive spiritual white man. Finally, the Guru conveyed that no woman will support my alpha demeanour and spiritual growth; eventually, I would go my own way into celibacy and seclusion. Long story short, my stay in little bohemia located on Coxwell and Danforth in Toronto was truly epic. I entertained different people from all over the world. My Girlfriend went her separate way, and Lucifer continued to educate me, and the Metatronic council oversaw the experiment. Of course, another woman eventually showed up to escort a fresh chapter and new location bigger and better than before.
The visitations from Lucifer heightened; it was starting to become an all-day occurrence; I could not shake him, and to be honest, I enjoyed his company. He suggested I avoid pornography, advertisements with women, posters, billboards and magazines. Moreover, turning the cheek from womanization kept my testosterone high and focused on what the angel commanded God's work. The following experiment Lucifer assigned me was, to be honest with one woman; this way, I would maintain my centre and preserve my organism. In addition, Lucifer revealed it's a requirement to respect all women, not sexualize or fall into hyper realities of New Age tantric teachings. One day I was fortunate to meet a famous Guru woman from India, a world-renowned teacher and healer; she would visit my healing center for two weeks. The Guru taught me about the female anatomy, habits and addictions of women. Also, she educated me about the pitfalls of denoting an attractive spiritual white man. Finally, the Guru conveyed that no woman will support my alpha demeanour and spiritual growth; eventually, I would go my own way into celibacy and seclusion. Long story short, my stay in little bohemia located on Coxwell and Danforth in Toronto was truly epic. I entertained different people from all over the world. My Girlfriend went her separate way, and Lucifer continued to educate me, and the Metatronic council oversaw the experiment. Of course, another woman eventually showed up to escort a fresh chapter and new location bigger and better than before.
Her name is Laura, a beautiful woman with a free, courageous spirit. We met at a temporary office I was using on Bloor and Christie at a workshop. Our relationship would move quickly; we loved each other profoundly, and she supported my work. I had something planned, a vision shown a while back, an extensive showcase of drawings (Geometry) that I was getting ready to create. The council of 9 was preparing me for the 12 and a new journey with an organization called the 144 thousand. I explained to Laura that I would be venturing on a vision quest to draw over 300 shields (images) and would need a space to do this in. I made it clear that she would keep me anchored and grounded because I would be drawing 10 to 15 pages a day. Together, we would meet new aspects of myself that would feel angelic or interdimensional through this process. Laura was in, and now we needed to find a place.
We moved into a beautiful two-story penthouse close to the Centre of Toronto square and would start the work. We found a second location close to the beach; it was a vacation home. The journey of drawing would last for almost nine months straight, 8 hours a day every day. As well, Laura would edit the language and add some images herself. After the completion of this work, our relationship would get closer. I finished up all the books, and we started to share some of the geometric shields with the public at the Toronto healing arts centre. She wanted to find friendship rings to symbolize our commitment to each other and the work. Then, we walked into a location named alternative thinking on Bloor and Bathurst. It was a large store with books varied from religion, spirituality, conspiracy, health and psychedelics. I felt a huge connection to the location. It was empty with open space; only the walls had inventory. I thought to myself, wow, at least one hundred people I could fit in here.
I walked up to the counter where there were a man and two women. I introduced myself and asked if I could use the area to do workshops. I would fill his store full of people and his cash register filled with the money. I explained that I do not charge for my seminars, and I have a database with over 3 thousand people that follow the work from an open-source platform with no copyright or trademark. His name is Rezo, and he saw the potential of his bookstore and in him. He agreed, but there was one problem we needed to inventory for people to purchase, not just books. At first, Rezo wanted literature only, but when he found out the business life I came from and the experience I had in retail, I would guess he felt more comfortable in my idea. So I gave him a list of the things the store would need and to source out. The vision I had was super foods, food-grade oils, lots of crystals and spiritual gifts. Laura and I would get ready to fill his store and generate the money for the house. I knew Rezo was responsible enough, and he had a strong vision of creating a sustainable retail store. We did our first workshop, and the room was filled at a total capacity of over 100 people; everyone who attended was grateful the event was a gift (free). So they spent the money in his store; the cash register was busy for the weekend with new clientele.
At one point, Laura and I would take a trip to Ecuador, and it was an awful experience. Finally, she would have enough of Alternative Thinking and wanted to slow down. Her mother tried to get us a home in Toronto where we could heal and recharge. The problem was that I wanted to stay and continue to build alternative thinking, remain celibate, and take a break from the whole sexual lifestyle for a while. I needed to put at least two years into this work. But, deep down inside, I knew she would need to go the rest of the way on her own with family. You can read about Ecuador on the website.
She left, and I would live and sleep on the floor at Alternative thinking. During the day, hundreds of people would continue to meet for healing sessions, workshops, healthy foods and gifts for conscious lifestyles. I would quickly become the pillar for psychedelic advice and awareness. Many people started to hear about my ethnobotanical research in Peru, Mexico and Egypt. The clientele I brought in to build alternative thinking were professionals older in demographic and had jobs within corporate positions. This would begin to change, and the clientele was multiplying quickly; they were extremely young, and most were misinformed and needed guidance. The age group was between 16 and 25; they came in by Bus loads to witness one of the most extensive psychedelics experiences I have experienced so far. I grew the lightworker scene from 2007 to 2010; there was no use of psychoactive substances, just yoga, meditation and energetic attunements, along with in-depth philosophical studies with a vegan lifestyle. This would all change from 2010- 2013; I would maintain the raw vegan lifestyle that would prepare me for this next stage, lose a considerable part of my customer base, and be judged harshly for this new Psychedelic Path.
The council of 9 would come to me in a visitation one night to let me know the Luciferian experience was going to kick into high gear, and I would drink a record number of plant medicines. Lucifer advised me to stay vegan because this next experiment would put a tremendous load on my liver, and I should fast three times a week with water and one day dry to keep my digestive system clean. Most failures in ethnobotanical studies, especially in an urban environment, come from toxins and poor diet. The organs in the body are not used to processing so much information at a phenomenal speed; they would not keep up. The fasting keeps the medicine active and fresh in the system, and the visions or ideas remain clear and crisp. I would begin colon hydrotherapy, one colonic a day for 40 days straight and keep a regular maintenance schedule of weekly flushing during the whole process.
We moved into a beautiful two-story penthouse close to the Centre of Toronto square and would start the work. We found a second location close to the beach; it was a vacation home. The journey of drawing would last for almost nine months straight, 8 hours a day every day. As well, Laura would edit the language and add some images herself. After the completion of this work, our relationship would get closer. I finished up all the books, and we started to share some of the geometric shields with the public at the Toronto healing arts centre. She wanted to find friendship rings to symbolize our commitment to each other and the work. Then, we walked into a location named alternative thinking on Bloor and Bathurst. It was a large store with books varied from religion, spirituality, conspiracy, health and psychedelics. I felt a huge connection to the location. It was empty with open space; only the walls had inventory. I thought to myself, wow, at least one hundred people I could fit in here.
I walked up to the counter where there were a man and two women. I introduced myself and asked if I could use the area to do workshops. I would fill his store full of people and his cash register filled with the money. I explained that I do not charge for my seminars, and I have a database with over 3 thousand people that follow the work from an open-source platform with no copyright or trademark. His name is Rezo, and he saw the potential of his bookstore and in him. He agreed, but there was one problem we needed to inventory for people to purchase, not just books. At first, Rezo wanted literature only, but when he found out the business life I came from and the experience I had in retail, I would guess he felt more comfortable in my idea. So I gave him a list of the things the store would need and to source out. The vision I had was super foods, food-grade oils, lots of crystals and spiritual gifts. Laura and I would get ready to fill his store and generate the money for the house. I knew Rezo was responsible enough, and he had a strong vision of creating a sustainable retail store. We did our first workshop, and the room was filled at a total capacity of over 100 people; everyone who attended was grateful the event was a gift (free). So they spent the money in his store; the cash register was busy for the weekend with new clientele.
At one point, Laura and I would take a trip to Ecuador, and it was an awful experience. Finally, she would have enough of Alternative Thinking and wanted to slow down. Her mother tried to get us a home in Toronto where we could heal and recharge. The problem was that I wanted to stay and continue to build alternative thinking, remain celibate, and take a break from the whole sexual lifestyle for a while. I needed to put at least two years into this work. But, deep down inside, I knew she would need to go the rest of the way on her own with family. You can read about Ecuador on the website.
She left, and I would live and sleep on the floor at Alternative thinking. During the day, hundreds of people would continue to meet for healing sessions, workshops, healthy foods and gifts for conscious lifestyles. I would quickly become the pillar for psychedelic advice and awareness. Many people started to hear about my ethnobotanical research in Peru, Mexico and Egypt. The clientele I brought in to build alternative thinking were professionals older in demographic and had jobs within corporate positions. This would begin to change, and the clientele was multiplying quickly; they were extremely young, and most were misinformed and needed guidance. The age group was between 16 and 25; they came in by Bus loads to witness one of the most extensive psychedelics experiences I have experienced so far. I grew the lightworker scene from 2007 to 2010; there was no use of psychoactive substances, just yoga, meditation and energetic attunements, along with in-depth philosophical studies with a vegan lifestyle. This would all change from 2010- 2013; I would maintain the raw vegan lifestyle that would prepare me for this next stage, lose a considerable part of my customer base, and be judged harshly for this new Psychedelic Path.
The council of 9 would come to me in a visitation one night to let me know the Luciferian experience was going to kick into high gear, and I would drink a record number of plant medicines. Lucifer advised me to stay vegan because this next experiment would put a tremendous load on my liver, and I should fast three times a week with water and one day dry to keep my digestive system clean. Most failures in ethnobotanical studies, especially in an urban environment, come from toxins and poor diet. The organs in the body are not used to processing so much information at a phenomenal speed; they would not keep up. The fasting keeps the medicine active and fresh in the system, and the visions or ideas remain clear and crisp. I would begin colon hydrotherapy, one colonic a day for 40 days straight and keep a regular maintenance schedule of weekly flushing during the whole process.
Next, we would order an infrared sauna for the back room, vibration technology and oxygen machine. The combination of colonics and these devices would keep my vibe high and physically active. This way, I could maintain the people's flow for seminars and ensure the cash register was always full. The public enjoyed using the devices; also, it was a win-win situation. The Crystals would keep the place clean with a high vibe and provide revenue for the retail location. Tarot cards, essential oils, smudges such as Palo Santo and sage would enhance the magical feeling and metaphysical atmosphere. Downstairs was a vast crystal kingdom with a giant copper pyramid and quartz crystal singing bowls, where most of my day was spent. Hundreds of people would venture down the stairs Weekly for crystal attunements. On their way out, the customers would purchase many items in the retail shop benefiting from conscious lifestyle products (A Bonus). In addition, we would expand the presence of art and build hundreds of spacecraft Geometry, hanging them from the ceiling, creating led frames and inserting fractal Images. Now alternative thinking was illuminated. The stage was set, high vibration food, Sauna, and other devices to keep me and the patrons clean.
All that was missing was elders; I needed a teacher who could guide and educate me. The call was answered, and three men would rise to the occasion. The first was a Rastafarian from the Caribbean; he was an older man and extremely intelligent. He established with alternative thinking in the early stages of a book store; before I showed up. He taught me about cause and effect, decision-making and aspiring to be a lover. The 2nd man was a Brahman from India. He was older and dressed as a homeless man walking the streets. He was wise and mystical; he would teach me about the Tara's of Tantra, chakras, and yoga's mystical path. He would represent the initiation into the priesthood. The 3rd man was also an elder from India and an Ayurveda doctor. He retreated into the forests for many years to study meditation and Vedanta yoga. A man of science and would open the doors to a deeper understanding of the body and mind. He would teach me about the intellect and the science of the organism. He represented the foreshadowing of death and tore down the mind, so I could attain my kingship. They would all share their philosophies, science and medicine; I can't list all the details of our exploration, but they were the best. Here is a summary.
The Rastafarian would counsel me through the psychedelic process; he always reminded me to keep my body clean while consuming the various plant remedies. He would check in to make sure I was considering everyone around me while achieving a higher consciousness state. Various shamans and medicine women travelled to Toronto from different parts of the world to bring me their county's medicine (Peace Pipes). Sharing one's medicine with a leader is an everyday social activity within ancient ancestral traditions. Many of these elders saw me as a bridge to the community. They would test the most potent medicine to see how I would incorporate their teachings. In other words, I spent many nights having reactions to these plants; some of the experiences were very difficult to manage, such as vomiting, intense bowel movements, mind gripping paranoia, trauma, and connections to higher multidimensional reality. During 2010 -2011 most of my experiences were open to the public; I was an available book. These medicines would range from San Pedro, ayahuasca, Rapé, 5mao DMT, Lsd, psilocybin, different Tobacco and Cannabis (oils and edibles) and MDMA. I would consume and sit through hundreds of sessions in an urban/city setting. I was invited and would be flying in and out of Toronto to the jungles, desserts, seaside’s and forests to experience hundreds of more psychoactive experiences.
All that was missing was elders; I needed a teacher who could guide and educate me. The call was answered, and three men would rise to the occasion. The first was a Rastafarian from the Caribbean; he was an older man and extremely intelligent. He established with alternative thinking in the early stages of a book store; before I showed up. He taught me about cause and effect, decision-making and aspiring to be a lover. The 2nd man was a Brahman from India. He was older and dressed as a homeless man walking the streets. He was wise and mystical; he would teach me about the Tara's of Tantra, chakras, and yoga's mystical path. He would represent the initiation into the priesthood. The 3rd man was also an elder from India and an Ayurveda doctor. He retreated into the forests for many years to study meditation and Vedanta yoga. A man of science and would open the doors to a deeper understanding of the body and mind. He would teach me about the intellect and the science of the organism. He represented the foreshadowing of death and tore down the mind, so I could attain my kingship. They would all share their philosophies, science and medicine; I can't list all the details of our exploration, but they were the best. Here is a summary.
The Rastafarian would counsel me through the psychedelic process; he always reminded me to keep my body clean while consuming the various plant remedies. He would check in to make sure I was considering everyone around me while achieving a higher consciousness state. Various shamans and medicine women travelled to Toronto from different parts of the world to bring me their county's medicine (Peace Pipes). Sharing one's medicine with a leader is an everyday social activity within ancient ancestral traditions. Many of these elders saw me as a bridge to the community. They would test the most potent medicine to see how I would incorporate their teachings. In other words, I spent many nights having reactions to these plants; some of the experiences were very difficult to manage, such as vomiting, intense bowel movements, mind gripping paranoia, trauma, and connections to higher multidimensional reality. During 2010 -2011 most of my experiences were open to the public; I was an available book. These medicines would range from San Pedro, ayahuasca, Rapé, 5mao DMT, Lsd, psilocybin, different Tobacco and Cannabis (oils and edibles) and MDMA. I would consume and sit through hundreds of sessions in an urban/city setting. I was invited and would be flying in and out of Toronto to the jungles, desserts, seaside’s and forests to experience hundreds of more psychoactive experiences.
The Brahman from India would guide me into yoga and mudras. He explained these ancient Vedic hand gestures during meditations and would anchor my higher psychedelic state into the body's energy flow. Thus, keeping the organs, immune system and circuitry system functioning. The combination of yoga and mudras' would give me the ultimate experience of going inward. He would call this Tantra. My favourite mudra was named Rudra and is associated with Shiva. I would walk around with one hand in my pocket, applying its inherent transformative abilities while addressing the public. The Brahman told me that Rudra means lord in Sanskrit and is associated with the solar plexus chakra, improving clarity and concentration. Method: Connect the thumb to index and ring fingers while keeping your other two fingers as straight as you can.
The Brahman noticed I was in a bodhisattva state; I would need the internal Shakti to ground the ascension process. Otherwise, the external (the woman) will manifest into reality to shake me out of it. So, he would teach the Tārā tantric, the feminine principle and the expression of compassion and wisdom, Shakti The essence of Tara is fearlessness and courage, the emanation of all the Buddha’s and bodhisattvas. I was a vegan, fasting three times a week and practicing the retention of seminal fluids. I created the perfect ecosystem in the organism to understand the Tara tantric. He would remove the five emotions (manifestations of Fear) from atop our crown chakras, such as pride, anger, jealousy, desire and ignorance. I would sit in daily meditations and pay homage to the 21 Praises (aspects to Tara) and the Six Perfections of generosity, moral discipline, patience, diligence, meditation and wisdom. Here I would find the direction into the priesthood, all in preparation for my last teacher, who would point me in the direction of kingship.
The Brahman noticed I was in a bodhisattva state; I would need the internal Shakti to ground the ascension process. Otherwise, the external (the woman) will manifest into reality to shake me out of it. So, he would teach the Tārā tantric, the feminine principle and the expression of compassion and wisdom, Shakti The essence of Tara is fearlessness and courage, the emanation of all the Buddha’s and bodhisattvas. I was a vegan, fasting three times a week and practicing the retention of seminal fluids. I created the perfect ecosystem in the organism to understand the Tara tantric. He would remove the five emotions (manifestations of Fear) from atop our crown chakras, such as pride, anger, jealousy, desire and ignorance. I would sit in daily meditations and pay homage to the 21 Praises (aspects to Tara) and the Six Perfections of generosity, moral discipline, patience, diligence, meditation and wisdom. Here I would find the direction into the priesthood, all in preparation for my last teacher, who would point me in the direction of kingship.
One day I was hanging the geometric images I created on the walls of Alternative Thinking to display. I noticed a new face, an older man in his 60s. He walked over to me calmly; his eyes were very white, and his posture was proud. He whispered to me slowly with a message, Stephen, you are 95 percent activated. I can enable the other 5 percent. He was the Ayurveda Brahman who lived in a forest from India. He had visions of meeting me while in the woods and was very excited to teach me everything he knew. I was invited to his house for lunch; he lived 10 minutes from my location, making our future studies very convenient. As we ate, a giant hawk flew to his window. We walked outside to say hello as it sat perched on his clothing line. He explained the hawk comes every day to visit and sit with him in meditation. In the back of my mind, I was not sure who I wanted to study with; the Rastafarian was super-intelligent, he was a part of alternative thinking, but I knew he would be around most of the time regardless of who I chose. The yogic Brahman captivated me with his metaphysical information. I have studied much of that information already. Now I was in the home of an Ayurveda doctor and was enjoying his company. He would show me where he slept in the basement on a mattress; we walked into his bathroom to where he did his laundry by hand in the bathtub. His wife and child came home while he was giving me a tour of his lifestyle. I was very impressed with his family; the child was calm, just like him. She spoke to me and explained her dad could run like the wind when she is on her bike; he is faster than her.
His wife would take off her coat; she was gorgeous, very fit, young and well educated. I was shocked; the Ayurveda Doctor was handsome and held a confident male frame, but he was over 60 years bald with glasses. How was this possible to have such a younger beautiful woman and get away with sleeping on the floor? We continued with our conversation. He knew that I had one teacher educating me about yoga and tantra, another man educating me about psychedelics and visionary philosophy. But if I trusted him, not I, he would teach about the mind, women, female anatomy, staying centred, and the science of my spirituality. I said yes to him because if I could hold my frame around women, I could aspire to be a great man.
His wife would take off her coat; she was gorgeous, very fit, young and well educated. I was shocked; the Ayurveda Doctor was handsome and held a confident male frame, but he was over 60 years bald with glasses. How was this possible to have such a younger beautiful woman and get away with sleeping on the floor? We continued with our conversation. He knew that I had one teacher educating me about yoga and tantra, another man educating me about psychedelics and visionary philosophy. But if I trusted him, not I, he would teach about the mind, women, female anatomy, staying centred, and the science of my spirituality. I said yes to him because if I could hold my frame around women, I could aspire to be a great man.
We would sit and study for 6 hours a day for several months under challenging meditations and conversations to challenge all my belief systems' foundations. I would give him total trust and control, my identity as the healer and Spiritual teacher. I asked him about yoga one day and why he had never shown me any postures (Asana). He explained to me that one must not learn Asana until one understands the mind. After this, Asana can prepare the body to sit in meditation for long periods. I really wanted to know the postures and began some research on my own; I found an ashram in Montreal, Quebec and wanted to visit the space for a month. He agreed but advised me to be careful; I asked the Brahman why. He told me I was not ready to study the postures, and the people at the ashram would be very excited to see me because of my prior knowledge. He articulated that the teachers may rush me into stretches that the body would not be ready to experience. I would leave for Montreal for over a month and arrive back in Toronto with a stomach hernia. You can read about the ashram experience in Quebec on the website.
I would arrive back home after the Ashram; I was excited to sit with the Ayurveda Doctor; we spoke about all of my experiences. When we concluded, he asked me what my addictions were; I answered with Chips, Lays plain, he said, are you sure. I said yes. He then stated that all men have the same addictions and the pallet or the mouth is the gateway to all of our senses. So when we consume food, we are masking the addiction behind it. I laughed and said, women, this is our addiction; he answered yes. I responded by letting him know I had been celibate for over 2 years without contact and retaining my fluids. The doctor replied and said the psychedelics have been suppressing women's addiction, and I must begin to fast from all of the mind-altering substances. He told me not to look into the mirror at my reflections for 40 days, even if I shave. After 40 days, the women will come by the busloads because I will no longer live as a celibate man. Of course, it would start with a 22-year-old beautiful yoga teacher and snowball from there. These women were attractive young and had money; they began to ask me out on dates, inviting me to business meetings, networking events and to their homes or weekend getaways. Interestingly, they were not interested in sex; they wanted ascension, wisdom, business knowledge, and intimate connections. So I said goodbye to the spiritual teacher in me, the workshops and seminars to venture out into the world of women. I gave thanks to my teacher and friend, the Ayurveda Doctor, I would never see him again, but I miss him and hope one day to reunite. Also, I would leave Toronto, and alternative thinking to fly out to New York, where all of my inner work would open up the Hieros Gamos and help a woman turned widow. The trip to New York would last just under six months; it was the most significant test thus far.
